Until I find more words to explain where we are on our post-adoption journey, I'm stealing/sharing the words from fellow adoptive families. This excerpt is from my friend, Lauren's, blog. It echos the dull ache in the back of my heart when I think of our kids' whole stories. While Judah and Addise will never "remember" what happened to them before they became Diaz's, in the words of adoption and attachment expert, Karyn Purvis, "Every kid has cognitive recall of their history." Consider that as you read Lauren's blog post:
"...and i especially hate thinking about my toddler-aged child (though i have never seen his/her face or heard his/her story) sitting in an orphanage quietly mourning the mother he/she has lost and wondering if there will ever be another mother to hold him/her again. i think that he/she must be old enough to remember what his/her mother's face looked like, how her hands felt, how her voice sounded, how she smelled...and also old enough to remember how suddenly she was gone...when all the sights, sounds, and smells just disappeared.
"but, in adoption, there is hope for redemption.
"tonight, i claim for my children and all those who need families words of scripture, promises from God...he sets the lonely in families...he defends the cause of the fatherless... he is close to the brokenhearted...he knows our sitting down and rising up...he never leaves us or forsakes us.
"i will not leave you as orphans, i am coming to you. -- john 14:18
"in him the orphan finds mercy. -- hosea 14:3"