An Ultrasound of Life

A couple weeks ago some dear friends (Daniel & Cassidy Roach) invited me into a very private experience: the ultrasound where they would find out the gender of their baby! The day before Cassidy approached me with the proposition. She somewhat sheepishly said, "Since you're gonna be a momma but don't get to have an ultrasound to see your baby, we wanted to invite you to ours. If it would be too hard or uncomfortable, you totally don't have to come, but we wanted to invite you."

Instantly, tears! I couldn't believe that they would invite me into that sacred space to learn the gender of their baby with them. What a sacrificial and special action of love!

What I didn't expect was what would happen when I stepped into that ultrasound room. Background: I've had probably over 30 ultrasounds over the past year in our attempt to get pregnant. There were some weeks I had 3 or 4 ultrasounds. But every ultrasound produced disappointing - and at time devastating - results. No news. Bad news. No baby.

But in that room with Daniel & Cassidy, I saw the purpose of an ultrasound - to show off LIFE! It was amazing. Beautiful really to see a baby alive, moving, growing in a belly. Daniel & Cassidy didn't cry. I did. I couldn't help it. It was a redemptive moment for me. One I could not have received on my own.

Redemptive that there is a baby for us in Ethiopia, maybe even growing in her birth mom's womb right now. Redemptive that God's moved us into this new journey. Redemptive to experience such generosity from Daniel & Cassidy. Redemptive to see Life right in front of my eyes.

Thank you, Daniel & Cassidy, for inviting me into your life and allowing me to receive more Life. It's still overwhelming, humbling, and beautiful. I can't wait to meet your little boy. Maybe our little ones will someday get married! :) Love you both.


April L. Diaz

April has been a visionary activist her entire life. She has made it her mission to lead high performing teams and develop leaders in the margins of society while caring for our bodies, mind, and spirit. Secretly, she’s a mix of a total girly girl and a tomboy, and is still crazy about her high school sweetheart, Brian. Together, they co-parent 3 fabulous kiddos and live in Orange County, CA.